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Sunday, April 03, 2005

Awake again, naturally

I'm up again as tomorrow is the day that I find out if I have a job or not. I've got a cab coming in the morning. I'd actually prefer to be well rested but maybe if I'm delusionally over tired bad news won't hit so hard. I'm eager to work and I now have my duckies in a row. Hopefully it's not too late. My days of asking or paying anyone for anything are over and it is clear to me now whom I will not piss on if they are on fire. Oh hell, I'll be generous, Piss on em! lol. Maybe the lil depressed nap I took this morning will help with my sleep debt I will owe tomorrow --Who knows? I will do what I can do and that is all. It will work out for the best I'm sure. I may have to stay near work at a friends house to insure my early arrival until such time my car is fixed. My OLDS, it shall be purring like a kitten soon. It's just complicated like me at times. I did manage to get the hell out of here for awhile today and have a nice afternoon with a friend. We had some good eats and checked out a casino. Won a tad too. Life is enough of a gamble for me personally, but it was therapeutic to get out of here for awhile. Ok so I'm worried to death about work. I will just accept that and do what I can. Denial can be such a useful tool at times but that concept isn't within my grasp right now. Maybe I can squeeze in a nap before getting up at 4 am. My eyes are crossing now so this could be a good sign. You live and you learn and sometimes you learn, re-learn, forget, learn again etc. ;0)

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